These days off are really needed

Today was just bad. I guess that saying, "someone woke up on the wrong side of the bed," totally applied to me. I didn't want to talk to my mom, or her to talk at me, and the same goes for my brother. Everything out of their mouths was like nails on chalk boards today and I wanted to scream. I didn't scream, but I definately was snippy. And then work. Too many cheifs and not enough fucking indians. And all the cheifs are telling the indians (what few of them there are) different ways to do everything, and then bitching at you when you aren't doing it their way. So I cracked. Not in the "angry-I'm-going-to-kill-someone-way," but in the classic frustrated Elizabeth way, I started to cry. I don't know where it came from, but my eyes started burning and then leaking. Juls says she does the same too, and that I'm not the only one who has cracked here at work. Robbie noticed I wasn't alright either when he came back from dealing with crazy people and going all macho on them and pulled his usual big-brother-needs-to-make-his-little-sister-feel-better bit. Robbie is silly. He was flipping me off yesterday while Bob Iger was standing right behind me. Hahaha, silly security guards. But he looks out for me. And don't worry Ryan, he sees me as a little sister. He is the only person I work with though that likes the same stuff as me. He is into the whole punk/ska/reggae thing. So we talk about music, and shows, and silly people.

You know what else I have been doing a lot of lately. Missing Ryan. I know why too. Personality-wise, and physically, Robbie and Ryan are a lot a like. They are the same hight, same build, same hair, carry themselves the same, and the hot tempered, ready to fight yet very friendly. I just miss him a lot. We spend less time together because I'm always working at night. We have officially been together 4 months now too.

My hair appointment is tomorrow. Well, technically its today. I'm getting it done at Frenchey's. Hope all turns out well! I think I'm in serious need of that just to give my mood a boost because lately, I have just been feeling...down.